And I couldn't help but think that we all feel that way sometimes. We have such high aspirations, we want to accomplish big and beautiful things--we want to fly, but we just keep falling down. Try as we might, we just don't have what it takes to do everything.
Sometimes we take that leap of faith, and when we aren't caught up to soar in the skies above, we're confused. We're confused because we trusted, and we believed, and we hoped. And all that we seem to be getting for it is the ground growing below us, faster and faster with no way to stop it. With no way to control it. Helpless to the pull of gravity.
A teammate of mine once shared her thoughts on Isaiah 40:31.
But they that wait on the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
She had been going through a difficult season--her races weren't what she wanted them to be, she wasn't doing what she knew that she was capable of. She prayed for strength, received an answer, and leapt in faith. And she fell. The next race was the worst one yet--and she was confused.
As she pondered on this scripture, the thought occurred to her that we do not have wings as eagles. Nothing in our power can change that. But as we turn to the Lord, we can do all things--even impossible things. We can become something that we weren't on our own. We can fly.
I guess that's something that we all have to learn somewhere along the way. We can do things beyond what we can imagine now, but only if we let go. It takes letting go of our own plans, our own ideas, and allowing ourselves to be shaped into what His plans for us are. It takes change, and we must allow that change. It takes trust, and hope, and belief that things will be alright in the end. That, though the ground is growing nearer and nearer, we "shall mount up with wings as eagles."
And we will fly.
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